This past month has felt like an excavation.
A slow, gentle chipping away at my insides. An archeological dig, of sorts, into the depths of my mind, body, and soul.
My chisel has been my breath. My hammer has been my yoga asana practice. My spade has been my mala beads. My map has been spiritual texts, yoga classes, and a yoga training that I am participating in.
At the end of a hard day of excavating, I have many salves that remind me that this journey is one walked with deep self love and compassion. And that I never truly walk alone.
They include time in nature, massage, abhyanga (ayurvedic oil massage), hydration, lots of rest, essential oils, aromatherapy, personal space, trail runs, sangha (spiritual community), and, perhaps most prolific of all - the Great Mother/ Gaia.
Since my earliest memories, Gaia, who I only knew as Nature, was a palpable force of healing for my body, mind, and spirit. I'd often find myself retreating to the safety of an enormous pine tree in my neighbor's yard, or the mossy rocks at the edge of my property where I'd play with the fairies.
Whatever confusion, heartache, or fear that boiled in my blood, Gaia would rock me with her gentle breezes or warm sun rays, or soft mossy carpets, and I would remember who I am and that all is and will be well. All I had to do was simply lean in to Her.
So much has changed, evolved, or fallen away since that time, and yet, the most consistent force through it all has been Her love - unconditional and true. No judgement, no storyline, just the sometimes harsh, sometimes healing truth that everything dies and is reborn.
If that's true, then what is our mission? What is our ultimate goal here, on this wild Earth?
To me it's as valiant and brave as burning karma from past and for future generations, and relieving suffering of all beings by awakening to the truth of our divinity. And as simple and elusive as walking the path of joy and delight.
As Khalil Gibran once wrote, "Forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet, and the winds long to play with your hair."
Whatever your struggle, whatever your pain, know that the Great Mother/ Gaia is right there, ready to hold it for you, to feel your bare feet, and to remind you that you are already home.